baye talks

i’m sick again:(

my head hurts so much. i don’t know what happened. maybe it’s because i forgot to bring and use my eyeglasses. what the heck! i’m having a terrible headache now..*ugh*

i was kind of sorry for myself lately. not that there’s really something to be sorry about me, but it’s something that i cannot seem to bring out my sympathetic nature to the surface. when our cat died yesterday, i felt indifferent to what happened to it. then, several weeks ago, i know, i and my friend got this little argument. and i am supposed to be blamed for it. another incident was i had “mercilessly” quarreled this particular guy for no reason at all.

i didn’t know if what i had been doing was due to PMS or maybe my quarrelsome nature had get the worst of me. pushing that sympathetic side of me into the background.

after contemplating, objectifying myself, looking-into-the-mirror-kind-of-thing, i realized i had been not myself..;( i have been the bad girl with her “whining school bag” (*woah*)..tsktsktsk

but, i could not bring myself to say sorry!!sheikz!! not now… (will i ever???i don’t know.)